tonight feel so lonely

feel sad,i feel so sad in my heart and of cause if me you all can call a guy always fail in love,but i trust in true love,people say if we patient and wait about love even we fail for the first it but sometimes it will be a new and old,but i trust that love come by itself,why when boy and girl still same in love need to be separate?i think i know what is the answer,maybe it learn how change attitude how to be more mature,responsibility,control emotion,know partner more better and also because of career and maybe studying because all that is important to be a mature...today she was s.m.sin me and saying congrats to me because of i get new girlfriend,suddenly i'm shock that what going on?i told her that she not my girlfriend,for a long time i still loving you since you leave me,i'm still faithful here just because i'm keep my promise that you are my true love and i always missing you all day and all night i keep dreaming you,then i answer with rude to her,i don't know how i want to talk with her as long not talk,s.m.s and also call,and i got a bit angry also of course because she leaving me and not me leaving her,and i just s.m.sin back to her with rude and actually i don't want do that,if can i want to say with softly and i really want to expression that i love her,i miss you,you know that...but i feel i can't,i need to do this,i care for her,i know she sad and i don't want make you sad but i have to...if i have chance to talk with her i would say hey,do you know why i love you?because god want us to be together like adam and hawa,like romeo and juliet...what anything happen in this world their love not going to be let go so easier... then she text me at my facebook and say why i messages you if i don't? then i just rude her again,i feel i'm so bad again to her what also before happen,i can feel she miss me too and i miss you also,i wish that we never end our relationship but all that she don't want ready and i'm so sad with what she do but i'm still going to love her and pray to god that one day i can meet with her again with no disappointed...