need someone?

dear deep in heart,

i'm tired of working,feel like working more than 14hours per day plus with now i'm get ill now,cough,flu,nose and left ear was block.truthful i don't eat medicine,i don't know why,i just hope it gone like that only and drinking a lot of water that enough make me feel got day by day.
before what i do is nothing just like before going mall to practice dance and also training singing...
oh ya about need someone?sometime i was thinking i really need a girl to close with me and be my bff,because i really need a girl to know about my feeling,share story and being together,that better that feeling is it...but i don't feel like want other girl,i just feel want my ex-gf name delia,she nice,pretty,her words always give spirit,caring,loving and she the one can understand about something,shy also but she can be annoying with her typing words haha,so many memory i keep about her and never in my heart to forget about it,she really like to drink air bunga that things i was remember so many time i don't know why,i keeping all her things what she give me and what is the big things i keep is you all must be suprising is i still keep her long hair in my box...i'm still love her so much,every time at my work i will never stop to thinking about her,every time what i do i keep remember about her,what the best things we ever do and something i was thinking also the way we fight and else make me tears,however,4 month did not seeing her that feel like 4 years,oh well,so bad i was loosing her because of my mistake also maybe but she leaving me...:( i don't know...i feel like want her next to me now and if can i want to hug her,she don't give me a last hug,the last one i hold her hand but she just let my hand away and go without looking at me like hatting look at me,it hard is it have to break away from people we so love to much,she was my true love i found that so hard to find replacement,hey first love and first true love is different ok,can imagine it...hmmm better i'm stopping now,feeling sad now...:( bye

*anwar*

about my feeling

i'm not tired waiting until death time call for,

nothing to regret waiting of  you,
i have to wait for you until when i lie down,
until i die i still waiting for you,

i wish to achieve a moon and take a star,
wish i can give all to you,
prove that how big my love,

i want you to know about my feeling,
i want you know my love so big,
want give my time and my age to you until die.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BBaBYjqaz9M

WTF...

dear3,

       WTF...my connection is always running from the line,i cannot open fb and write my story,today i write also because of my brother broadband...haiyo...so what happen to me in last week is i'm just keep working in my new place with have new friends name eddy and he got wife and have children also,he is a funny and kind,and also khairul, he have a nice vocal of singing quran,and he is ok...hmmm,what happen to me?feel like nothing only,seeing of customer of student at my work place to many want to photocopy and printing their assignment and talk with them just how there are with the school and just talk with funny story to make them not to tension and no worries,got girl also interest with me but i don't have time for all that because of i want to be success and also yes just because i still love my ex-gf even before she say don't hoping with her love anymore but in front of her i just show that but in back i will still hoping of her love again until when she is not anyone that i can do to show how high my love to her,got again she sms me and tell me don't be with girl that can change my attitude and choose girl make me do bad things,i don't understand,but i can see she still care about me and worry about me,i also care and worry about her,before everything i was share with her but now i don't have place to express my feeling,maybe that why i'm writing in here to express what my heart feel,and no one will understand how is me and no one anymore,i got say also that she should give that care to someone else already because i really not decent,i really wish no don't i don't want it happen...:"(,i still loving her,but if that make her happy i have to accept all that things even it make me feel so hurt and depress...
        sunday, like always is i go have fun with my frineds lee,danny,joe,roy, and many again we all training to dance up machine ddr and pump it,it always fun and making me out of stress of everything,i like to dance and singing,hey i can dance and hey i can singing too,artist?i can make sound like singer anuar zain from malaysia and my name also anwar just different w and u and also father name,haha,so that all happen to me and also learning L kick...yeah!!!

*from shuffler dance*
anwar peace and love...

better good and better not

dear deep in heart,

                thankful i'm still here and have time to write about my story in here.
last week was a busy and tired tired and tired,learn something new at place where i work and i was work at printing and top up shop  i think i become pro so quickly, and i also busy with my business networking finding clients and introducing them about my business and products.i also try to think and design how to make special landscape,so i make 3 jobs here,phew...about my study?i already stop because i cannot concentrate study anymore and i keep fail,before my study was ok because my point become up and up but after my lover leave me it become down and down,i study and get spirit because of her but now not anymore,but maybe if i become successfully 1 day i will continue my study maybe next year and become a good and top student i wish...:)then,yesterday my ex-gf got s.m.sing and she say she miss my attention then i feel sad because i miss her attention too because i have no one special that want to know about me and worry about me also take care about me,before i was s.m.sing her with rude but suddenly i just talk with her like before and ask her how she is,i think she is happy with her friends and her school because i got talk with her i still love her with full my heart and also of cause i read her blog about her story what she doing,that mean i do worry about her and that good she fine and happy there but i'm so wish she not fall in love with someone else because i still want her...:( she like become social to much ready but i trust her with what she doing and know how to take care...hmmmmm about today i was enjoying my outing at centerpoint at last i can dance shuffle at dance dance revolution machine(ddr) and many people watch me dance and i'm doing well about my dance...hihi...

then i playing puncher with my friends,oh my friends with me was danny and ah seng,my other friend lee is late because he from church and plus with rain again he try to outing find us,and he just stay at ddr there and my friend ah seng bring me go up to see his friends then it was girl name eqa and her sister and another girl again then eqa also was my friend at my college and before long time ago we ever couple in 1 week but only at phone,we never know each other then we choose to become a friend only,then i just blur and she push me to go inside k-box

 that i don't know their will booking place for me and ah seng too,then ah seng don't want go in but she already push me and ask me to go in to singing with them too,i think she have a nice voice and just improve again she will good in singing then she coercive to singing and i don't know that song and she ask me to sing also and say with rude words,she was crude girl and then i know she was a smoking too...wow...that so dangerous...hehehe,but i can see deep her actually she is a nice girl and cute girl but i don't know what behind all this so better i think about myself is it...phewwwww...that all for today because tomorrow i need to go work again,sunday is my rest day but i hate for today because to many people on sunday...haiyo...that all...

xxxanwarxxx
       peace and love always

you are as my flower

love,

you are flower that hiding behind wall,

wall that are closet around my heart,

why flower should be fade so fast,

maybe it some of mistake,

mistake that forget to put on water,

but that not mean i forget you flower,

you a something shining,

when i looked at you,

you actually can make people smiling,

anywhere,anytime, and all day.

love,

colourful of your flower is so meaning,

you are parable princess that care,

you are parable angel give spirit,

you are no two another words to call you flower,

you have that smell that i wont forget,

smell that i never forget in my mine,

always feel want smell you in a right time,  

when in time i missing you,

that why i love you like flower.