need someone?

dear deep in heart,

i'm tired of working,feel like working more than 14hours per day plus with now i'm get ill now,cough,flu,nose and left ear was block.truthful i don't eat medicine,i don't know why,i just hope it gone like that only and drinking a lot of water that enough make me feel got day by day.
before what i do is nothing just like before going mall to practice dance and also training singing...
oh ya about need someone?sometime i was thinking i really need a girl to close with me and be my bff,because i really need a girl to know about my feeling,share story and being together,that better that feeling is it...but i don't feel like want other girl,i just feel want my ex-gf name delia,she nice,pretty,her words always give spirit,caring,loving and she the one can understand about something,shy also but she can be annoying with her typing words haha,so many memory i keep about her and never in my heart to forget about it,she really like to drink air bunga that things i was remember so many time i don't know why,i keeping all her things what she give me and what is the big things i keep is you all must be suprising is i still keep her long hair in my box...i'm still love her so much,every time at my work i will never stop to thinking about her,every time what i do i keep remember about her,what the best things we ever do and something i was thinking also the way we fight and else make me tears,however,4 month did not seeing her that feel like 4 years,oh well,so bad i was loosing her because of my mistake also maybe but she leaving me...:( i don't know...i feel like want her next to me now and if can i want to hug her,she don't give me a last hug,the last one i hold her hand but she just let my hand away and go without looking at me like hatting look at me,it hard is it have to break away from people we so love to much,she was my true love i found that so hard to find replacement,hey first love and first true love is different ok,can imagine it...hmmm better i'm stopping now,feeling sad now...:( bye

*anwar*