Kenang Dalam Pendam Rasa

Dalam seharian ku pendam rasa,

Entah mungkin untuk meneruskan perjuang sisa-sisa hidup ku,

Lupa sejenak kasih dan sayang ku,

Ia kisah mahupun cinta?

Apa guna berkenang setelah diri ini ditinggalkan kesunyian,

Namun jua ku ingin ungkapkan kata hati yang luka parah,

Ibarat tali yang putus dari benangnya,

Tetapi izinkan ku ungkapkan kata I LOVE YOU,

Hingga ke akhir hayat ku ini untuk mu seorang,

Akan ku kenang mu jua dalam lubuk hati ku,

Variasi wajah mu tidak dapat dilupakan,

Oleh itu aku merindu,

Rindu kasih hanya padamu,

Namun nama mu ku tidak lupa hiasi laman ku.

A Dolphin

            Before last night, i was dreaming something weird and it all start with a dream and a dolphin.
i even don't understand meaning of all this and why suddenly a dolphin?
ok that night when i sleep and i dreaming a dolphin try to safe me from the pool i don't know where is that place anyway,and then that dolphin save my wallet and my handphone,that dolphin try to tell me that my wallet and handphone like really important to me 1 day. i try to touch that dolphin and say thank you but i'm scare to touch that dolphin because of me have a high imagine like that dolphin going to bite my hand and whatever la but i know that dolphin is nice but suddenly i just try to close again with that dolphin and really more i don't understand because it become disappear,of course i'm wake up from my sleep...haiyoooooo...i become blur and asking with myself what actually it going to be happen?
             
            last night, i become happy when my ex-gf suddenly sms me with say hai...:)...and got smile again...hehe...and with fast i'm just reply same hai and asking her how she is,she was boring that night and her bf Mr.D was hangout with his friend,so i'm just try to friend her with sms and make she just happy cause i don't want look her sad anymore even i'm not her ready but i'm try to be her friend, a lovely friend that i can care for her and won't let her sad and hurt, so i'm just explain to her that i can friend her when her bored or when she need friend just can sms me and don't forget  about that and i try to make she feel better that her bf will never forget her and can take care good of her,if he hurt her i will not let him go. but actually yes i'm not joking and not just make her feel better and i'm serious about that.then, we was talk,talk and talk and i'm telling her about my dream about a dolphin and she got asking that she like dolphin and yes i'm still remember that she is like dolphin and i can imagine that my ex have a same like a dolphin,a same them is cute,smart,kind,understanding and lovely...she is like a dolphin and yes i like a dolphin but scary with my high imagine...hahaha...well i hope she is my dolphin that i was dreaming with full of question,i wish i can dream again and know what is this all about and what going to be happen...hmmm?

 by,
anwar the sweetmango
(love and peace)
*actually i hate words of forever already,it was haunting me when me or someone else saying with their couple their will love forever with them couple and at the last their will broke up also but sometime i'm trust that love forever will have but not all will get it,what i'm try to do if i can get love i will say i will love her everyday,i don't care if she 1 day start to tired to hear it but what important is i'm love her everyday my life.now i'm still single and still not thinking replace someone that i'm still love her.not wrong if i'm still waiting for her until god will decide who will i meet with my love.:)

Are I'm Still Dreaming?

               July is past, I'm not trusting in fortuneteller because got this singh or indian come to me and ask me for let him to fortuneteller me and that time i was blur and just let him and telling me that july is my lucky month and then get 3 happiness again. Now, July is past and now is August and I don't even feel that happiness come to me, oh yes he of course he just want cari makan,oh well it was past ready and i even don't believe in that fortuneteller because there is no one can know what god is plan for us is it?I'm agree with that.
              hmmm, are i'm still dreaming? that actually i wan't to story about,there is so many things happen to me but it all is just like a dreaming to me, i don't even realize are i'm in august ready?so fast time past, i feel just yesterday i'm with my gf and still thinking about her,and also feel like yesterday i'm just do like today?what a dream is this? i really need someone to woke me up from my sleep and tell me i was only dreaming. Sometimes i feel like i'm not in my own place,i feel like i'm at somewhere far away from life and i'm in some of place kind like a peace place where i can feel a nature that so perfectly and i was thinking created by god was amazing,hmmm where i am actually?

                                                                        i don' know.

back to my love story yes i feel like yesterday i was still with my gf but i realize it was ending ready and now she is happy with someone guy ready and his name Mr Darcy that she always saying,i can feel how she is happy with him ready,can see from every words she saying and no i won't disturb her happiness because if she feel that happiness i will let her because i want see her happy and that the way i reply how i care and love her so much like this story deep in heart,yes it really deep in my heart...every night i'm still imagine about her,in my sleep and everyday my day past must have her past in my mind and then always see almost same with her but it was not her it just a bad imagine that    more loving of her,i ready imagine how i can't life with her and now i feel it,it was not what we thinking it going to be like this but i hope god will send me a angel to give me a friend where i can say out my feeling,please give me a angel...:p (just joke)...well, i'm wish i can find my angel actually,as long she can accept me as myself that enough and each other is understanding that enough for me for now...that all for now and please wake me up from my dream(waiting who that girl is wake me up from my sleep and dream)

by,
anwar the sweetmango...:)
(love and peace)

I'm A Dancer Of Shuffler & Freestyle Machine

I want to learn more again about dancer and hope my friends who always stick together and support me lee kuan yung,danny and shinta...their is my bestfriends better i ever had,everything share about how to be a good dancer and learn from a mistake,it ok if we defeat with other people,make it like a fire burn in heart that make up our spirit that we can do more better with learn from a mistake make us more mature and know about dance,we all have a dream want to conquer around KK then this december go KL to conquer over there,i have a dream i want to go japan to learn more about this machine dance,im here at japan their have a lot of pro dancer,i was interested in them,their are to cool and awesome,i wish 1 day that my dream come true and can go with my dancer friends...i will improve and plus my skill again in dance machine,freestyle,tectonic,jumpstyle and shuffle are going be mine,next is korean dance is im try to learn from my friend lee...he was to good in korean dance and he a lot give me skill,inspiration and technique...wish them all going to be stick together with me and create own team...1 day...:)


a dancer:
anwar ahmed(peace)

Bring My Love

Swear,
There's no more chance to be with you,
Now,
I know the way how i want keep always with you,
Bring my love,
Take it wherever you want,
Just take it as your friend,
Your beloved friend,

Swear,
I'm here will doing the same,
Keep loving you in my life,
In my heart,
till someday time will decide us,

1 Day...

kau ada dia...

Lirik Lagu Kau Ada Dia(the lima) – cover by me...

Sudah lama ku memendam rasa
Cinta di dalam dada
Namun tidak pernah bersuara
Kerana takut kecewa

Ku tunggu waktu yang lebih baik
Untuk langkah pertama
Jauh dari apa yang ku kira
Hatimu ada yang punya

Di dalam mimpi kita berdua
Mesra bersama dilamun cinta
Oh tetapi kenyataannya aku sedar kau ada dia

Mungkin juga semuanya salah ku
Terlalu mengharapkan cinta
Tapi sepi yang merasuk kalbu
Membawa angan melayang

Di dalam mimpi kita berdua
Mesra bersama dilamun cinta
Oh tetapi kenyataannya aku sedar kau ada dia.

1 by 1

dear deep in heart,

haaa...so long time i din't outing my feeling to you deep in heart,1 month din't see and now come june, hmmm,love?hehe love love love still love her,i can't forget her,she is something special that hard to find in this world and maybe she the last 1 only,i still keep thinking of her,when i close my eyes then i was imagine her face,the way she smile,the way her beautiful eyes seeing exactly to my eyes then my heart will be nervous so fast and fast and furius 5...haha...oh telling about that movie it was fantastic and awesome,so cool i'm enjoying anyway...ok back to the story,hmmmm, i don't know how her feeling to me maybe she don't love me anymore because i can feel she happy with someone guy that i know who is him,maybe i regret all in my life, regret because before i can't apreciate her so much,i was not mature,always not trusting her and know that god want to show that i'm not for her because of myself that selfish and can't take care her that better, if i got power and can use 1 time only i want to use to see what in her heart,who she loving?are i'm still in her heart,if i'm still have even just a bit i will be improvement and change to be more mature and be more responsibility and love her all the time and last i want marry her and take care her and my son until i die!!!that a promise,but without her also now i try to learn something to be more mature,learn from my mistake how to be apriciate girl more,how we need give our love all the time to them and know what them like and don't like and also understand their carrier is important how their want to be,give them space too,spent time and important is take care their love and loving each other what in love needed...

other girl come suddenly?
at my place work got girl student print her assignment,3 times ready she come at my work place and the first that she come with her friend girl also come and ask me to find map for her assignment i try help but i can't find because of slow internet and of cause i see her and she see me,i was telling in heart she was beautiful and we always see each other to many times and i think i just like her because she i feel ok la...just like not love...like and love is different.then second time she come she want to reload and she give her phone number to me to reload her but i don't know she just coming to do that?i can feel she want me to sms me but i just make don't understand because ya maybe she just really want to reload and don't have feeling to me anything,that emberassing...then third she come with many her gf and she want print something then i and her like change not joke and shy each other because before we like to joke and laugh again when something funny but now like shy each other and keep looking, i don't know what happen, then now i don't even see her ready...haha i can feel that she have a bf alrady,how come a beautiful girl don't have bf...that lie...hmmm anyway i like her,the way she react and talking...she a good girl...anyway that i call girl suddenly now i don't see her ready i don't know what happen because it just suddenly...to my love i still love you!!!

the way she talk?
before she ever talk that don't wait for her,haiz maybe that she want me to forget her and keep with my love to find other but i don't understand why she so seriously talking like that even before she ever seriously say to me love me so much and won't leave me and promise that i'm forever and ever promise want to marry me 1 day and get a baby...and i was soooo seriously too...i don't know how get her plus she was far away again and i don't know where she is now...at least tell me and don't make me blur ,maybe she just can tell she have someone else ready and i think that fact...haiz i'm not say this to hurting her but just want to know and understand something,i don't want her will mistake with my words...how happy if she can still say love me infront of me and give me a hug...i'm so miss her so much,i wish can get her a hug and a kiss again...but got again important how to take her heart?i don't care if she have someone or not until she not married and tell me she have someone that special ready i won't broke hope to her...i love you delia...andel still in my heart...thanks...